Hephzibah

These days have been exciting and my heart soars with joy and awe. I have been pursued, caught, courted and blown away by Love.  He has captivated my heart over and over again. Truth is words really cannot describe his devotion to me. How do I adequately express his commitment to me so others understand? Words can never adequately articulate His desire for me.

 

My name is Hephzibah – “My delight is in Her”. That’s the name he calls me. His thoughts towards me are so precious and how great and vast is the sum of them. I am precious in his eyes and he honors me and treats me tenderly. He rejoices over me with singing. He looks into my eyes and sings over me. He does me good every day and never ceases or tires to do me good. He has clothed me with loving-kindness and his heart is filled with mercies so tender for me.

 

For my sake he takes no rest until he has made me the envy of everyone. He never tires of my voice and as soon as I call he listens, hears and responds. I don’t have to wait for ages for his response - he enjoys listening to me. He opens my eyes to see his words and open my ears to hear his voice. When I am lost he finds me, when I am tired he gives me strength. When I am sad he comforts me. When I am hurt he is near to wipe away the tears and he bind up my broken heart. He knows everything about me, and he knows what’s on my mind as I think it.

 

He never condemns me. Instead he teaches me how to do things right. He instructs me in paths of wisdom. He disciplines me in kindness. He corrects me firmly but with patience. He doesn’t give up on me. He affirms me and forgives my wrong. He doesn’t even keep a record of all my wrongs against him. He fights my battles for me, and I recline in his garden. He has given me his surname and very soon he is coming back for me. 

 

Oh I delight in the knowledge of the truth that my maker is indeed the greatest lover anyone could ask for. The more I know him, the more I hunger and thirst for more of him.  He is the one who silently bore my pain, cancer, heartbreak, poverty, malaria, foolishness, guilt, virus, disease, shame, hunger, debt and sin. He took my place- received condemnation and death in my stead. He did so to set me free from that curse of perpetual wrongdoing and death. He took my place so that I may have his life- deep rich abundant and fulfilling life. He died for me that he may win my heart and I may live for him always. His blood flowed freely on the cross of Calvary, that I might never have to suffer oppression. 

 

He is my peace, my song, and my love. My heart melts at the thought of him. He is my one true desire. He says to me – Delight in me and I will grant you the desires of your heart. Oh Jesus – IT IS YOU I DESIRE, give me MORE OF YOU!

If I were God...

If I were God 

I'd wipe out mankind daily...they can be so annoying.

I'd do as I please and rule in fearsome terror.

I'd have my revenge on those who sin against me - no mercy

And enslave those who love me - they were created to worship anyway 

I'd make a different man daily and use them selfishly without consideration to them.

I surely would never create man in my image.

And I most certainly wouldn't reduce myself to die for the people I created...

But thank God I am not him. 

Jehovah

Created by no one - self existing. 

Creator of the entire universe.

Creator of powers, thrones and kingdoms.

All powerful

All knowing 

Always present 

Yet

He is tender hearted (yes his heart is tender)

Gracious & Full of mercy (abundant mercy)

Desires me & Loves me (still can't figure out why)

Died for me (to take away the sting of death and give me life)

Lives in me (To enable me live victoriously)

Cares for me (all ways/ always!!!)

I can't wrap my head on why,

He insists on loving me when I am unloveable

Faithfully  pursues me when I desert him

Steadfast in mercy and empowers me with strength when I am weak

No condemnation

No hate

That's the God who is truly God.  

Worthy of praise, glory, honor and adoration.

I'll scream it from the rooftop Lord

I am totally in love with you

You have captured my heart again and again and again

Life without you has no meaning.

I am yours and you are mine.

Hallelujah!!!! 

Look Up!

Daily I learn. Decided to share today's lesson with you. 

I realized It won't suffice anymore to blame others for our shortcomings, disappointments, and frustrations. As I grow older it's imperative to rely less on my human pillars and incline more to the maker of my life. Humans are humans, yes even that best friend, sweet lover or devoted parent with honest intentions. No one can rise to the aspirational role of steadfast faithfulness... No it's not their fault... No human can achieve this because inherently we are all flawed. That's alright though - the potter knows just how to make the broken clay a vessel of honor and a testimony of grace...

Summary: Stop looking to man it's not fair on them... I couldn't bear such a burden. Look up... Jesus is able to save to the uttermost all those who draw near to God by him, since he ever lives to make intercession for us. Look up! 

Mercies Forsaken...

Strong will inspires the pride that balks at the remedy provided

Hidden beneath confidence lies restlessness from vapid ventures

Repeatedly he says  to himself "Help is for the spineless"

Ego arouses the anger that screams down the voice of succour

Mirage of splendour camouflages the gritty reality of poverty within

Assuredly he bellows "This is my life"

Legitimately secured in trappings of humanism

Shades of narcissism consumes his bleeding heart 

Complacent with life he sighs "It can never get better than this"

Open Letter to ....

Good morning!
Have u shown yourself to be an example of grace? Do you give grace to others as much as you daily receive from God?

1. Talking endlessly about a friend's errors reinforces the character trait or weakness and does not help correct them

2. God is the only person they are accountable to, not you. You either give them a break or stay away.

3. The only job you have been called to do in relating with fellow men is to LOVE them!!! God wants you to love them despite everything. To bless them, pray for them, love them, do not backbite. That's all you have been called to do - walk in love!

4. You don't know the conversation people have within their hearts. You haven't walked in their shoes, you don't know their history, you don't know the reasons they do the things they do. You do not have the full information and the full understanding of the man's heart! For this reason alone- you are unqualified to judge!

5. The bible asks "who condemns the man that God has justified?"
Do you want the answer to that question to be you? The truth is that when God justifies a man, he does it in an instant. A man is convicted by the Holy Spirit and he goes to his maker for grace, forgiveness and acceptance, which he receives. He becomes a changed man or his short comings are gone. But there you are, clueless about the private fellowship and conversation he has had with God.

6. If you were not busy being a busy body, but have been doing what the Holy Spirit says- "bear with one another in love", you wouldn't have fallen into the trap of speaking unadvisedly with your lips.

7. What the devil is supposed to do and receive judgement on, you are carrying it on your head. You are venturing into the territory of being the accuser of the brethren, alongside the devil. Hmmmmm

8. Judge yourself so that you won't be judged. Think about this- how many times have you done stupid things both consciously or subconsciously? When you realize you failed to live the life of Jesus which you profess in a situation, how do you feel? Terrible? Don't you ask God to cleanse you, and hope others don't judge you?

9. Did you become perfect overnight? Isn't it years of fellowship with the Holy Spirit that makes you get it right? Do you judge someone who peeped in bed at the age of 10 at the age of 24?

10. Further more, a man can't give what he doesn't have. If you have never heard that lying is a sin you will sin. Our job is to point and teach the truth in love and then let the Holy Spirit convict them as we step back and start to see them as people who DO NOT lie.

I ask with love, that we learn to project the heart of Jesus to people and don't go behind and tell the world of their weaknesses, and condemning them for it. See them through Jesus' eyes...

PS: One more thing... this is actually an open letter to myself.... :) Good Morning!

His Name Is You...

So soft...

The brief touch of your lips on mine

Was I almost intruding?

My eyes wander over the stubble

That ever so gradually shadow your face.

My fingers stroke gently your rough beard

You are too hot for me to handle...

But oh!

Do I ever long for your soul filled voice to whisper my name...

For your muscled arms, 

Chiseled shoulders,

And broad torso...

To surround me in intimacy

I hold no exceptional expectations 

For you, Or I,

Or us for that matter.

I long only to be blessed by your minty stained breath on my perfumed scented neck

In your embrace

I cannot help but feel

The inferno

That radiates

Through our bodies

In astonishing harmony

That single graze of your skin on mine

Sets the entirety of my figure

Ablaze

Taiwo

When You Know It Is Real...

Love...

It's being mentioned countless times this spilt second across the world- this oh too familiar word called "Love".

It's on my mind right now ... So let's talk about it. 

I have come to know different shades and colors of what I thought was love ... But I now dismiss these as frivolities in the light of my new revelation of this wonderful word.

If you need affirmations daily from someone special before you can love - that's no love

If I am clinging and cannot eat for days without seeing you-  that's nothing on love

Buying me gifts and telling me I'm pretty/ sexy doesn't inspire my love 

Seeking and demanding an apology from you to feel vindicated when you hurt me- doesn't spell love, neither does it smell like it

What then is love?

Love is the ability to make a choice to protect you and stand by you irrespective of how awesome or not you are

It has nothing to do with you- my love is independent of your gifts, your attributes, your looks, your eyes, your mind, your smile or your prospects ...

My love for you is hinged on the truth that I am a person of value and worth. I have a God who loves me unconditionally. A God who knows me by name and takes care of my needs. 

So I don't need you to feel loved... I am greatly loved and happy. I have joy in my heart irrespective of your presence in my life. A joy that won't and can't stop because the king of the universe calls me by his name.

However, I choose to be by you. I won't love you more because you give me unlimited attention or get my heart so well

I won't throw tantrums because you forget my birthday or a movie date.

I forgive you not because you say sorry; and I take care of you not because you take care of me.

In fact, we don't have to be together for my love for you to shine through. Irrespective of the status quo I will keep on loving you.

I have made a decision to love you and I stand by it, not because you are so cool, but because I was made and called to love you. 

Your love for me and my love for you, irrespective of our strength and weakness will bring us to the pearly gates of heaven; when we realize that we were made to love each other unconditionally.

Yes... I was made and called to love you; that's why I love you so. :)