Seeing My World With New Eyes

For precept must be upon precept, precept upon precept; line upon line, line upon line; a little here, and a little there... Isa 28:10

I have a deep hunger and yearning to live this life of Christ, which is my inheritance in him... I long so deeply for the things of Christ, and to be all that Christ says I am in him. So when sin strikes; the rebellion, the pride, the anger, the lies, impatience, anxieties, self will and cunningness...there is that old big tree of disappointment and defeat hanging over my mind- telling me "NO ONE CAN BE LIKE CHRIST- HE IS GOD...FACE REALITY ALREADY AND GIVE IN". 

So many times I've heard these words and then I give in and  start all over from the beginning...asking and begging God to help me be a better person in Christ. 

Wrong move! 

God has done all that he will ever do for me as a faithful God and father to his children. The rest is left to me to appropriate his promises into my life. I realized I wasn't doing what God says to do. 

Wasn't it God who called light out of darkness? The entire world was void and filled with darkness. Empty and formless...If I was God I'd probably whine and say Oh no it's sooooo dark, there is simply nothing I can do with this. But God didn't do that- instead he opened up his mouth and commanded light to come out of that darkness. This tells me there is light hidden inside of every darkness I see around me, all I need to do, is do exactly what my father did- call light forth out of that situation. 

Then it dawned on me! God calls things that are not as though they were. Wow- You see darkness but you want light in its stead? then call it forth! By faith, the world was framed by his word!!! What is seen was not made out of the things which do appear. WOW!!!.  If the devil knew that Jesus Christ dying on the cross was victory camouflaging as defeat, he would have done everything to stop his death on the cross. Rather he championed the hearts of men against Christ by fueling it with hate and spite. All along, God knew that light was coming out of that dark and dreary day outside the city gate of Jerusalem. 

Now I understand his grace and the victory I have in him. If I mess up instead of allowing guilt... I speak the word -"Sin will have no dominion over me, for i am NOT under the law but under grace.... I am crucified with Christ, and I no longer live but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the flesh, I live by faith in the son of God who loves me and gave his life for me. My old man was crucified with him, that the body of sin might be destroyed, hence, I am no longer a slave to sin. I reckon myself to be dead to sin and alive unto God through Jesus Christ. I was made alive with Christ Jesus, even when I was still dead in my transgressions."

When I feel like all hope is lost...I remember these are dark moments and a great opportunity to do what Christ did- Speak the word! I renew my mind with the water of the word. I eat his word and its like sweet honey in my stomach. I no longer say what my surrounding says... or what my family, friends, church, employers, coworkers or society says. Only the words of God will be found on my lips as I daily reaffirm who I am in him, seeing my world and life through the eyes of faith- The perspective of Christ.

Taiwo

My Intimate Lover ❤

I've always wondered secretly the possibility of two lovers attaining complete intimacy. Seriously, can one really achieve a level of intimacy with someone else, in the ideal term of the word? Can a person honestly know another a 100% inside out? 

I find the human specie to be very profound in every aspect; most especially on the internal plane. I can't still fully grasp myself, even after many years of living inside my head. To know that my mind has the ability to independently come up with sudden and random suggestions still amazes me.  One moment, I'm in complete control of my person, and the next dependent on another for clarity or survival. 

So... 

Can I really know what you are thinking if you don't voice it out? 

Can I truly decode why you acted in a certain way if you don't break it down and explain yourself? 

Can I reallyyyyy know EVERYTHING about you? 

Will I understand why you stay up late at night- truly get it? 

Will I forgive your actions based on your intents? 

Can I truly see beyond your nose into the beating of your heart?

Can you see the pain in my heart if I don't usher certain words?

Did you see me cry at night when I masterly hid it from you? 

Do you understand the laughter that erupts from my mouth in a moment of memory reflection? 

Can you see the picture painted vividly on my mind that makes me giggle? 

How do I recreate such loveliness with mere words, just for you to appreciate the beauty of my thoughts? 

Ha- so you see the reason why I ponder. Don't get me wrong- I like the act of open communication between friends. I am grateful for the beauty of marriage and the concept of a soul mate.

However, I want to be known in the nude in every aspect of life; spiritually, physically and emotionally. I would love to be naked and bare before my lover 24 hours a day, in a depth beyond the physical. To walk in the blissful awareness that I am completely known. Accepted for who I am and loved to the last fibre of my being. 

But with humans this delightful phenomenon isn't possible. No one can ever get to this level of complete awareness and knowledge of another. No one knows the heart of a man except the spirit of that man. But our souls incessantly crave for this kind of knowledge. We are hard wired to expect our lovers to understand our hearts before we usher words. We expect too much and project attributes unto them, they simply cannot attain as humans. 

So is this true ideal of intimacy possible?

I have come to the conclusion that yes- yes this is possible. I have been loved since the day I was conceived; naked and caressed all my life. How wonderful to wake up at night and his warmth fills my soul. I brighten up in the consciousness of knowing I am a 100% known and loved. Judged by my intents and not only my actions- how delightful! Before a word is on my lips, he knows it. Before I ask for his heart, he gives it. I am completely secure in the beauty of such vulnerability. 

This is the perfection of intimacy- To be truly known and loved!!!

Psalms 139:

O Lord, you have searched me and known me! You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways. Even before a word is on my tongue, behold, O Lord, you know it altogether. You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me. 

Isaiah 54:5

For your Maker is your husband,

the Lord of hosts is his name. 

Isaiah 54:6

For the Lord has called you like a wife deserted and grieved in spirit, like a wife of youth when she is cast off,says your God.

You know me Jesus- Yes you do! ❤

SELF: A huge faux pas and a delusion of reality

John 8:32
" and you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

The 21st century is indeed one of the most peculiar ages in the history of the world. An oxymoron of wonderment decadence. A plethora of technological advancement versus rapid growth in sedentary lifestyles. A paucity of affection and assistance versus an avant guard of self indulgent intellectuals. The indelible emergence and reign of the media empire (tv, films, radio, blogs, Internet and interactive tools) versus a social revolution in both acute and chronic moral rebellion. An age of instant gratification, and a vaudeville of performers joined together in a splendid variety of revolutionary crafts and tasteless arts.

A STOP sign is instantly attributed negatively as a symbol of weakness; while the coveted ideal is an emerald light, which beacons you to ride forth with your dreams- no matter what they may be. This very ideology has brought me to my knees in sheer exhaustion, and complete frustration, at the endless trail of a garbage full trashcan, which I failed to STOP and empty.

As a woman headed to the top, you cannot be caught up in vulnerability. When you throw your pearls before swines and they beat you up, trample upon your jewels... you take it in your strides and move on. Strength is in your inability to release or vent pain.

When you lose a loved one to the cold hands of betrayal and the future lies in bleak uncertainty- walk into the boardroom the next day and put up a steel front; displaying none of the threads of your inner soul that threatens to fall apart stitch by stitch.

When your decision to get pregnant is hinged on the basis of your resigned acceptance of a stunted growth on wall street; you stare hatefully at your breasts before you in the mirror and take up a hateful feminist outlook on life. Begin a futile war on gender inequality- after all that's all you can really do.

No retreat no surrender. Stilettos on my feet, Louis Vuitton purse in my hand; looking like a million bucks on the outside, with a glare of defiance brighting up my eyes. But defeat in my heart, a cry to stop in my soul- an endless turntable spin of the songs of freedom in my spirit. However, I get into my car put in my CD- "How to conquer your world with assertiveness, self reliance and self assurance". I turn up the volume on the player and drown out the wretched pleas of my soul.

Honestly, I wanted to stop. I longed to stop but how could I perform such an abomination? To stop was to incur being a scrounge of the earth; a sluggard from the pit of nothingness; a lazy soul burying the talent bestowed upon her; a worm feasting on a tetanus wound and licking the injury with much relish.

You see- the excuse of exhaustion was the tetanus wound. The cry to stop and think was the burial of the gift of life and talent; the lack of satisfaction from an empty life, with a filled trashcan trailing my every move was synonymous to whinny injury licking! At least that was how I saw things in my understanding and analysis.

So no- I didn't stop. I would be great like my contemporaries and contenders. I was an ambitious woman who wouldn't stop when life gave me a kick so hard I doubled over. I wouldn't stop when God sought my attention with unplanned circumstances- nope I wouldn't and didn't stop.

Wrong choices mixed with right decisions kept me going. Vanity upon vanity fueled my incessant climb to victory, and the pain stricken denial of the horrid smell behind me and the pit within me, helped me go to bed at night. Yes, I was determined to be someone who would fit perfectly with the fools of this age. I was going to gain the whole world with its shallowness and lose my soul in a forlorn empty way of living.

Thankfully, the lover of my soul and the Father of my spirit won't give up on me. The nudging on my insides got stronger and more intense. Suddenly it made sense! I was headed for a crash- I was set on a collision course with hell and I was going on a high speed; it was high time to step hard on my brakes!

My eternal slavery was a reality- it was so tangible I could taste it. Therefore, if death and eternal damnation was as real as a bath of ice water on my skin: I knew there had to be a truth, light and freedom that could caress, heal and bring warmth to the depth of my inner belly, which would spring forth from the inside out.

I started thinking about life and I found the lie that stole every good thing I had from me- SELF. Myself!!!

Self: A false praise
Self: A lie
Self: A thief
Self: A cheating coward
Self is Nothing.

I didn't plan my birth into the world. I have no idea why I came through my parents- neither did I invent colors so pretty, nor was I responsible for the production of noise in my voice box.

My intelligence isn't mine- I have nothing do to with not being retarded.
My beauty isn't mine- I didn't have a say in my race or skin color
My accomplishments aren't mine- the ability to move and perform have nothing to do with me.

I exchanged the truth of my Creator and God with a lie of self! I turned to my own way and went astray like a sheep about to be devoured by the wolf of SELF! I believed in myself when I boasted of being a harbinger of dreams and a prodigy of priceless worth. What a joke- I had nothing! I am alive because someone wants me here. I didn't even get to choose whose belly I'd come out from. My wisdom was foolishness, and my self confidence was baseless- I didn't birth myself into existence!

The totality of my being is the ingenuity of someone greater than I. The heart that pumps blood through my veins; the articles, ventricles and network of cells in my body is the sheer wisdom of a being higher than I. My spirit, which gives my body life, and my soul, which gives my mind understanding is the creation of a God whose thoughts and ways are unfathomable.

Wow! The truth of my existence, and the vapid ventures of my life took me on an earnest quest for my soul's maker. I found Him- JESUS CHRIST. The giver of life, peace, joy and righteousness. In him I found purpose and satisfaction; rest and compassion; wisdom and love. He is the
giver of rest to my endless labor of meaninglessness. In him I live, breathe, and have my being.

Indeed, I can say now with God that "the wisdom and SELFish ways of the 21st century is foolishness before God... For no man has received anything except what has been given to him from heaven... For he causes the rain to fall both on the righteous and the wicked".

Teespice

A love letter to my perfect special lover

"Without you my life is incomplete." No, scratch that- without you there is indeed no life in me. I'll be a walking corpse. A living dead, a tragic soul, and a spirit cast into an endless abyss of darkness here and hereafter!

My perfection, Dear Majesty, God of light and love- I can't help myself. You are my deepest desire, your love burns deeply in my heart, and I'm afraid I'll burst into flames of divine love. Many times, I beg the Holy Spirit to switch off the revelation of your love for me, because my heart can't contain the intensity!

Jesus Jesus Jesus!!! Why? Why do you love me so much? What did I ever do to deserve a love so pure, so beautiful, so patient, so forgiving, so just and merciful at the same time so holy and perfect?

Then again whom am I kidding? You have to love me! You are responsible for my life. In your perfect will, Father, you desired me and breathe me into life. You gave my spirit and ushered me into the world. I didn't beg to be born, so don't you dare leave or forsake me, good Lord.

Yes, I have been lost many times but because of your faithfulness I'm found today and always in Jesus. You didn't leave me to the condemned life Adam sold me out to. You faithfully came to the rescue. No one could accomplish such a mind boggling feat.

Thank you Dear Majesty for your gift of Jesus. Isn't he lovely and wonderful? Isn't your son the most beautiful sight man would ever see? The Son of God pledging an allegiance with man forever- taking up the title "Son of Man" in his résumé. Wow- words are just not enough to describe, and no mind can adequately comprehend such a love so divine, born of holiness and awesomeness!

Hide me forever under your wings! I don't care what you'll have me do, as long as your Spirit does it with me. I love you perfect maker of life and awesome ruler of the universe. I'm desperately in love with you and my heart burns forever for you oh King of splendor. Jesus you are my king and I'm your loyal subject. I'm clothed in humility and seated at your feet; forever will you find me seated right there always.

Father, Jesus, Holy Spirit- divine perfection; one God in three persons working in divine synergy and oneness. Tonight, I, your daughter pledges that I'll never leave you nor forsake you. I will love you with an everlasting love from now till forever. I'm yours and you are mine- always!

With love
Your child and friend
Taiwo

Life so Beautiful!!!

In an imperfect world, one strives to be the best one can be. Through hardship and pain, to the exciting feel of rain on the skin, and the pure freshness of breeze that makes you sigh with gladness. Nature is another way to see and hear your Creator. 

Many  people see him in different ways, depends on how He decides to relate with you- but do you pause to actually hear the true essence of what he is saying? You might say no you don't- it's neither  because he speaks too fast nor he speaks too soft. 

Nope. You don't hear him because anxiety rules your mind. Belief me He speaks- try being still and listen. When you listen, listen to the rain drops, listen to the birds that sing at dawn, listen to the laughter of kids playing but most importantly listen to the sound of your heartbeats, then you'll know that God has given you an answer to to life's big question.

There is so much beauty that can be found even in the most hopeless places. Like the comfort received at the death of a loved one. Like the forgiveness a victim gives his assaulter. Like the adulterous woman defended by her maker, or the conversion and kindness of a murderer! This bittersweet imagery also shows the hand of the Creator at work.

In my life's journey, as I seek meaning and purpose, harnessing both keys of hope and faith, I have realized even a greater force that can never be overcome. Love. Love will always bring us home to the truth of our existence.

And the answer is - Life in Jesus! Close your eyes and whisper a song of  thanks.

The Perfect Marriage - A Call to Action to My Single Girlfriends!

I tend to be quiet these days and keep the things God puts in my heart to myself. However, today I was moved to compassion after chatting with two of my very close friends. These two are in completely different situations but the pain and confusion is the same. We've all made mistakes but God loves us so dearly and deeply, and no mistake could ever come between his love for us. With both friends, the issue was the same - A man, a husband - A protector. So, I'm going to give out what has been given me. Happy reading. 

How far with man? What's your plan and strategy on that one? Still having dreams and fantasies for now? Let me give you a secret to getting a great husband. Your husband is in Genesis 2 vs 18 and 21. Let me break it down. 

Firstly, let me say that God is the first Father to give out a daughter in marriage. Isn't that exciting?

Secondly, your husband is alive and well out there. A Christian saved by grace. He is godly and has been reconciled to God through Jesus and now lives once again in the perfection of Adam before the fall; through the life and likeness of Jesus in him.  (This is the most important factor  God works with.) 

Thirdly,  the truth is that your godly husband is busy with the work God has given him to do. Whatever work that might be. It might be as a King (a workplace believer) or as a Priest (a pastor or teacher of God's word). Genesis 2 vs 20 "So the man gave names to all the livestock, the birds of the air and all the beasts of the field..." 

Fourthly, Marriage is God's idea- not the man's or the woman's. In Genesis 2 vs 18, the Lord God said "it is not good for the man to be alone..."

Fifthly, God wants to make you dear girl. He wants to make you fit perfectly for your husband's needs. Genesis 2vs 18b "... I WILL MAKE A HELPER SUITABLE FOR HIM."

Presently, your husband is in a deep sleep (i'd like to think of that as a sort of cluelessness about what he needs, and the fact that God has taken something out of him). Genesis 2 vs 21 says "So the Lord God caused the man to fall into a deep sleep; and while he was sleeping, he took one of the man's ribs and closed up the place with flesh. 

Having done this, God now wants to get busy with you- to make you from your husband's (rib). By rib, I mean his substance, essence and heart.  Genesis 2 vs 22 "Then the Lord God made woman from the rib he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to the man".  The woman is indeed God's lovely gift to the man. 

After God was done making the woman, he presented her to Adam and he recognized her immediately as his wife - The first marriage! How come Adam never called any animal his wife? If you are dating a man and he is treating you as if you are a "gorilla" please flee.  Sincerely, it is not his fault- he can't give what he doesn't have. He cannot value what isn't his. 

What you should do is tell God to make you after the substance of the godly man he has chosen to give you.   Be rest assured that your husband will wait for you in his deep sleep (because God has put him there) and he will not name a strange woman aka "a gorilla" his wife. lol. Genesis 2 vs 23 says the man exclaimed "this is now the bone of my bones and the flesh of my flesh, she shall be called woman because she was taken out of me". That's the only way you can live happily with your husband in perfect harmony- when he recognizes himself in you. 

Tell God to make you, shape you, mold you, and form you, so you can really be a wife that can help your husband in his calling. Your service to God is to help your husband fulfill his service to God.  When you pray in this manner, you'll see that you will begin to change on the inside, and think in a manner foreign to you. You'll start having a desire for something God will put in your heart. It might be strange, considering your background and experiences, but yet lovely and fulfilling. This is God making you- you are being made from the inside out to be a suitable helper for a blessed man out there. 

Please don't leave or abandon God while he is making you. If Eve had ran away from God  to Adam's arms after she got just one breast or one eye and woke him up- do you think Adam would have leapt for joy? Adam would have either fled or just calmly named her a chimpanzee and put her in the zoo with the rest of the animals. lol. That is not your portion in Jesus name. Instead she waited in the hands of the creator.

I don't even think she knew who she was being made for. All she knew was that her Father was fashioning her after brother's substance (rib). After the making, God was satsified at her perfection - then and only then did he present her to Adam. The bible didn't record how long it took the woman to be made, I doubt it took a long time. Why? because she was still and trusting in the hands of her maker. The more we fight God, the more we delay our marriages or enter into wrong ones or worse godless ones. God will not give his son a stubborn chimpanzee for a wife. lol.  Women especially christian women need to forget about men and just allow God to make them. 

I know it might be easier said than done- but if God's word is true and trustworthy why not calm your nerves and relax in his hands? There is a clueless man out there doing the will of his master. Now is the time for God to bless him with a wife. To do so God needs you to allow him to form you after the exact same pattern of the substance of his chosen husband for you. When God is done, he'll present you to this man, and guess what? Your husband will see your heart and passion for the work God has given you, to be the exact representation of his heart and passion for that work. He will see the way your hips swings when you sashay across the room and his heart will melt, he will be excited to the core when he sees Jesus radiate in you with the way you carry yourself, your grace, self worth and compassion for others: He will scream out "Chei! Chineke - this one na my own!" hehehe. 

Daughters of the most wonderful Father in the universe, the more you run into the arms of strange men, the longer you postpone your marriages. In God's mercy, he will always rescue you from those men- he rescued me, but how long do you want to play hide and seek? If you insist on having your way with men who are yet to receive Christ, God might let you have your way eventually - but the pain and anguish you'll face as the helpers of godless men bring tears to my eyes just at the thought. Wait for God he will NEVER put you to shame.

If you are reading this, and you have already made a mistake by marrying someone that you shouldn't have. Do not worry. God respects marriages. Stay in the marriage but now is the time to find God and cry out his name. He'll save your husband and then turn him into a son after His heart. This work is what you have to do, you have to speak positively about your husband no matter what he does and back up your confessions with prayers. 

On the other hand, if you are married to a christian man but you two don't see eye to eye on anything - tell God to make your husband godly. Number two, tell God to pattern your heart after the substance of your godly husband. A godly man is every woman's crown and joy. When God sees you he sees your husband - so why not hold out for the one who will bring a tender smile to God's face. Not pain or anguish on your behalf? 

When you walk in the consciousness and awareness of this truth, you'll realize that NO MAN can do 419 for you. Why? because no man can have you, unless God gives you to him. My dear ladies, your men are alive and well - yes it is a present tense. Go back and study everything I have written word for word, and ask the Holy Spirit to open your eyes to see what I clearly see. It's one thing for me to see and say the truth, but I can't see for you. You have to see this truth yourself. So pray in all the sincerity that you can muster in your heart and ask for your eyes to be opened to the truth. When the light dawns on your inside, stop the prayers and start to give thanks daily for him. Talk about your husband as a present tense when talking to God about him. I will never tell you this, if I didn't know what I was talking about. 

I wasn't looking for any of these truths. My heart wasn't inclined to seeking out this revelation. The Holy Spirit for reasons I'm still not sure of, woke me up and took me to this passage and taught me himself until I got it. Everyone who truly knows me, know I shy away from the talk of marriage or a man. So I was really confused when that was what I woke up with. Oh boy! Did He teach me - until I saw!

It is a reality. These days I just thank God for my husband and my children, yes, because my children are already alive. I can't see them now because I am subjected to time but God who has time in his hands see them.  So I thank him daily for their lives, their first schools, their graduation etc- why? I'm not crazy. lol. God is the I AM. All of time lay before his eyes in the present. He sees twenty years from now, right now. So why won't I thank him for people who are alive in his own eyes?. hehe.

Lastly, I thank God for the marriage I already have. The marriage I am already living in- in God's eyes. Daily, he teaches me how to be a better wife; he turns me into the proverb 31 woman and shows me how to love my husband, my children and be a balanced woman in all i do.  Time will bring the manifestation for me. However, it is an established family already in the spiritual realm. So this is no longer a matter of God please give me... It is now, God thank you for what I have. I'm busy being the proverbs 31 woman daily. I cover my husband wherever he is daily in God's protection and I proclaim blessings upon my children daily. 

Ok! I'm going to shut up now! hahaha. Love you all dearly.

Teespice :)